First post in 3 years

It's not very often that I post on this site, but now I am.  A lot has gone on with me over the last few years, even moreso in the past several months.

Last week, I decided to steer clear from Facebook, due to some unfortunate circumstances that have occurred.  I don't want to go into details about it, other than the fact that two treasured friendships, one of 14 years and another of 2 1/2 years, came to an abrupt end,

I do take some responsibility over this.  I wanted to help a friend who was going thru some rough times, but my actions and me taking things to another level prematurely cost me big time.  That friendship ended last May because of a circumstance that I was indirectly brought into, because of revenge from another person who wanted to get back at me for stuff that happened over a decade ago.

Before that, almost three years ago, I came across a friend invite from someone I didn't know.  Her name is Laurie McVay.  She's a mutual friend of another friend I had on FB from England, and I'd figure she was real and not those fools who puts up fake FB accounts.  I took a chance in adding her, and it paid off.  We both hit it off real well, and we became very good friends.

I lost her friendship, and I really have no one to blame but myself.  I know that the things that I did were incorrect, excluding the horribleness from late last May... I was betrayed so bad by another person to the point where I didn't care and I actually wanted to end it all.

I've been depressed about this whole thing ever since.  I truly care about this girl, more than words can say, and I would do anything to earn her trust and her friendship back.  And from there I would allow it to go to another level.

For now I will go back into this site and post my stuff on here.  At least a few people will be able to see these posts.  It is Universal, but I do want to say these words, and I hope Laurie sees them:

I am very sorry for making you uncomfortable and for the "not giving it a second thought" actions that have resulted in you and me being strangers again.  I never wanted this to end, never.  Deep down inside, it hurts.  It really does.  And I want to make it up to you someday, and believe me when I say this: I want to make this up to you in the best way any man can do for a woman.  I care for you so much, and I will do ANYTHING to have you back in my life, as a friend, and most importantly, as a positive spirit.  Just give me that opportunity, and the time and patience to heal, and to improve my life.  And then perhaps we can talk again.

I do miss you, Laurie.  I miss your posts, your likes, your music, and most importantly, the positive qualities that you possess.  We will be friends again someday.  I know we will.

Thank you all.

RD